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Dec. 13th, 2009 @ 07:48 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: exhausted
Current Music: Arcade Fire: Ocean of Noise
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Listening to Arcade Fire over and over and over on projectplaylist. Just going down the list.

I wish I was done with the military. I wish I had a decent enough excuse to get out like everybody else that hated the military that wanted out. Why do I have to be in such good soldierly health. Maybe I should just let myself go and eat fried chicken everyday to kill my gall bladder and be put on honorable discharge for medical reasons. Yes. Smart move.

9 more drills 9 more drills 9 more drills. August 21st 2010 cannot come soon enough. I have drill this weekend and I keep dreaming that I forgot my instrument.

The little bird in the mood thing is now making me yawn.
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BandD
Dec. 9th, 2009 @ 11:40 am (no subject)
FUCK OFF DAVID'S BRIDAL yes I already found my dress I told you six times before remember? I remember.


Winds are blowin' perty hard over here. Weather channel says it's up to 50mph. Maybe I should be more understanding when the power will decide to eventually go out then.
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goggles
Dec. 3rd, 2009 @ 09:28 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: worried
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My mom has to be the most stubborn woman when it comes to facing her own reality that I know.

She smokes like a chimney (but claims that her lungs are crystal clear, even though she coughs nonstop); she eats bad food (but claims that cheese and fat and salt is good for you); works out, but only haphazardly.

Because she smokes vehemently so, her sense of smell is dulled to that of a 90-year old woman, her sense of taste is filled with the need of filling it with something incredibly overpowering (whether it be super sugary or super salty). I know I talk a lot of smack about my mom, but it's because she does it to herself and it worries the hell out of me. She's sabotaging herself and quite literally, cigarettes have taken over her life.

But what good does it do. Because she's the mommy she knows best. Sigh.
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olive trees
Nov. 19th, 2009 @ 12:31 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: cold
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The thermostat broke. Great.

I had a dream that Bryce met Tim Burton last night, asked him why he didn't use any minorities in his films, in which Tim Burton replied that he liked his characters to look gaunt, pale and unhealthy and he could achieve that look better with pale Caucasians. Hm.

I'm kind of tired of thinking about the wedding. Every night when I work super long days my mom comes down and wants to talk about it. Sigh.
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olive trees
Nov. 11th, 2009 @ 11:33 am (no subject)
Current Mood: cheerful
2nd day of apple cider vinegar and I feel great. Even the non-painful general gargliness is gone. I feel more energetic, too.

Next step is to try to make the house not smell like a bowling alley.
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foot
Nov. 10th, 2009 @ 06:21 pm Blagh.
Current Mood: grateful
This past week and weekend was very painful for me.
Saturday night I felt a sharp pain right underneath my chest that I'd felt also on Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday, only earlier that week it had felt like heartburn. Saturday it just felt like extreme indigestion. I keeled over at work and I've had severe bouts of diarrhea since last Sunday. Still do.

So Sunday morning I decided to go to Immediate Care since no food changes had made any positive outcomes. I had tried just eating bland foods, apples, yogurt and the like--no avail. Immediate Care I promptly puked and they told me to go to the emergency room. I go to the E.R., and by this time it's about 3:30 in the afternoon and the only thing I'd had to eat was half a banana at noon. They schedule an ultrasound and a CT scan in the E.R. and I get those done--negative. Great. That night I got admitted to the hospital as inpatient.

The following day they scheduled me for two invasive tests--an endoscopy and a HIDA scan. Both consisted of considerably more discomfort than an ultrasound or C.T. The endoscopy wasn't bad, they wheeled me out and injected me with a drug that promptly knocked me out while they stuck the tube down my throat and peeked in at my upper GI tract. Again, nothing.

The HIDA scan was different--now I'd told the doctor several times that my family has had a history of gallbladder problems and that both my mom and grandma had theirs taken out years ago. The pain was also right underneath the ribcage--just a dull, gurgly pain at this point since there was nothing left in my belly. They still had given me instructions not to eat anything, and it was Saturday afternoon. The HIDA scan was specifically to take a picture of my gallbladder. They first took a picture of it whilst idle, then 30 minutes later, injected me with an enzyme that was produced naturally in the body anyway that would make it react as if I "ate a whole bucket of fried chicken". I immediately felt nauseous, but they had my lie on my back with the camera two inches away from my belly which prevented me to do anything about it but swallow the bile down.

Still, the scans came back negative. Nothing. No ulcers, no gallstones, nothing that gave me any answers at all. The nurse had said that the ideal function of a gallbladder was to be at 70-80%, and mine was at 38%, but they wouldn't consider taking it out unless it was below 30% function. Great.

So what they chalk the pain up to was a severe infection or virus. AKA--no answer.

I got home and immediately did research on different websites about people who've experienced similar pain, and every single person had claimed that mixing a shot of apple cider vinegar with some apple juice cures all ails--within 15 minutes the pain is gone. Not a single claim saying that it didn't. They say chugging it is the best way to do it. So I tried it, and right now I do have to say I feel 50X better than I did in the hospital bed. I wish I knew this beforehand so I wouldn't be wasting so much of my time and hunger away.



In conclusion:
I fuckin' hate hospitals.
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olive trees
Nov. 3rd, 2009 @ 11:33 am (no subject)
Current Mood: sick
Current Music: Arcade Fire- Laika
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Still having pretty twisted dreams. Woke up at 3 am this morning and I heard a pulsing sound outside and asked Bryce if he heard it. He sighed, rolled over and said "if only we could get abducted.."

Been watching South Park online, for some reason. That shit is funny.

The cold medicine is kidnapping my brains away. I should just do what the hippies do and take a shot of apple vinegar with hot peppers and garlic. That'll wake any ass up.
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olive trees
Oct. 4th, 2009 @ 09:32 pm (no subject)
I found a new walking spot: walking about 2 miles to this street that's just gorgeous. Very worth it.

My boss wants to promote me, and I heard from somebody in that position that it's really not all that worth it, in so many words, as well as some other things. Uh oh.
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plane
Sep. 29th, 2009 @ 11:19 am (no subject)
Current Mood: calm
Wow, haven't posted here in a while.

Things are looking up, I'm getting more work at Summerfield, but I need to start looking at other prospects and actually saving up for a good camera. It sometimes seems like I'm losing more money than what I'm making at this company and that it's kind of a scam. However..I want to get the time in so it looks good on the resume. I started in April so October will be 6 months. I actually got to shoot the Hi-Key photoshoot which is my favorite because it offers a lot of freedom (it's the one with the bright white background and usually nothing else). It was really nice to sell those and see the parents actually say good things about it. Ironically the ones I took the risks on and did more poses the ones the parents liked the most--unfortunately I wasn't sure about it and didn't do that with every kid, so now I know for next time.

It's getting colder here. The leaves are starting to turn.

Now that the wedding is less than a year away (albeit just by 11 days, but whatevs), I'm starting to feel more of a need to find the things left that I need to find: a photographer, a good bridesmaids dress for my bridesmaids, a cake color scheme (I already decided on the cake), and talk to my Aunt Kim for the orchids she's providing. I'm trying to make this wedding as cheap as possible and dammit it's going to work. Almost everybody I know is either in the catering business or knows somebody that is, is a photographer, and my mom's making the cake and my sister in law is painting the cake. Mwahahaha. So far the only expensive thing has been the venue--and I plan for it to stay that way.

Next week we're going to the forest and again, being frugal but having tonz of funz. Love him.
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hippo!
Aug. 31st, 2009 @ 12:04 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: bored
Current Music: coldplay- careful where you stand
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Hah. So the tomato/carrot juice turned out pretty foul. I tried dribbling some tabasco sauce in it but no dice. Oh well, at least I figured out a way to get rid of the tomatoes. They're still coming, though the peppers are almost through.

I'm not working at all this week because neither job is really demanding right now. This sucks; I need the money.



Also: I have a pepper that is shaped like a banana pepper but is progressing from a green shade to an orangey-red shade. I know it's not a jalepeno, a chili pepper or a banana pepper because it's actually pretty big.

Update: just googled; I think it's a serrano pepper. It packs the heat which is something that I can dig. Finally I can make mexican food proper! There's about 5 sarreno peppers that I can (apparently) pick now to make a good salsa. It said the smaller the pepper, the more dense the heat and it doesn't matter if I pick it now or later. So, yay. Salsa making time! Now I just need to buy some onions.
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avery
Aug. 28th, 2009 @ 02:55 pm tomatoes, tomatoes, tomatoes
Current Mood: anxious
Current Music: Bob Dylan- The Times They Are-A Changin'
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My parents have three huge tomato vines growing in the corner of their yard, another one tucked away betwixt their strawberry bush (which currently has produced 5 strawberries) and green pepper plants (currently growing 2 on the vine), and two other "upside-down" tomato vines (fortunately they don't produce any tomatoes--I told them that in the beginning, but instead they spent their money and ignored me. Such is life). The aforementioned plants are grossly overgrown, so I decided to take all of the baby tomatoes we had stashed in the fridge from picking them outside and made tomato and carrot juice. Who knows how it's going to turn out, I just stuck them in a blender and put some salt and pepper into it. It's cooling in the fridge right now.

Now what else to do with the other five thousand tomatoes I'm going to do, I don't know. Maybe make a huge tomato calabrese salad for a football team. Maybe patent a new "densely-flavored" V8. Tomato pie? I don't know. My mom already has canned sitting in the cupboard from last year. Granted, I LOVE tomatoes but jesus. Maybe we should invest selling them to our neighbors in exchange for her doing acupuncture on our dog, which is actually working wonders. He actually walked up the stairs last night, stupid decision of course, because he wasn't able to make it down the stairs by himself.

I'm curious of this tomato/carrot juice though.


Listening to the Watchmen soundtrack. Soooo many good songs on this. Makes me want to fall asleep dream to it and see what kind of images get conjured up.
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arles
Aug. 24th, 2009 @ 03:45 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: annoyed
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Got my cavities filled today. Hooray? I hate going to the dentist.

I'll repeat; I hate. Going. To the dentist. Dentists have sharp pointy things they stick in your mouth and you usually hear something that resembles a mini vacuum cleaner. They always talk to you while you have five pieces of gauze in your mouth with the numbing stuff they put on your gums and teeth (that last part is sort of a love-hate thing..I love that fillings aren't as painful anymore because of this numbing creation, but I hate the aftermath of it). I hate dentists even more than I hate going to the doctor, mostly because I go to the doctor a lot more often and I've just gotten used to it.

Fortunately, I got all four of my cavities filled that I've been waiting to have approved for at least 5 years. UNfortunately, my cavities have gotten so bad because nobody's approved paying for it that I probably will need two root canals. Sigh.

The assistant was trying to make me feel better by putting earphones on me from her iPod, which contained all of Britney Spears' greatest hits. Sigh. While it was a good deterrent from me thinking too much about my surroundings, by the time he was finishing up I'd rather listened to the dental instruments whirring in the background, so I just threw the earphones off (well, as much as I could).

The aid and the dentist kept flirting with each other in Korean, too. Fun.

Now I'm really hungry and can't eat because oh wait MY LOWER LIP IS STILL NUMB.
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plane
Aug. 24th, 2009 @ 10:30 am (no subject)
Current Mood: anxious
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So we were looking at options for a doggie wheelchair for Stern and..well..they're not nearly expensive as a knee replacement or something like that, but we might as well build our own. They're $200+, which consists of nothing but a couple pieces of canvas, pvc pipe, tubing and wheel. Puhleez. We can figure it out. We found a how-two online and it's pretty simple.


Going to the dentist today at 1pm. Don't know what it'll consist of. I hate dentists, but I hope now they realize that the fact I have cavities means that I really should have them filled before a root canal is needed. Silly Army. The Army are the people that are paying for it but every time I went to the dentist in the past they just told me that I had cavities but they couldn't do anything about it. Uh, kay? This time, however, when I received the phone call for the dental appointment I was told the cavities should be filled. Don't know if that means they'll actually do it or not, but I hope they will. They're starting to hurt.
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BandD
Aug. 22nd, 2009 @ 12:35 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: distressed
I'm afraid we're going to put my parent's dog Stern down. He's in so much pain from athritis in his back quarters that he's crawling around on just his front legs now. I went to give him his pain medication the other day and just started bawling. I know that if he dies, their other dog Nick will probably go soon too. They're like brothers..

I just wish my mom was here for that, because she's in Australia right now and her and Stern have the closest relationship.

I've never seen a dog go downhill that fast. It's so sad. Literally a month ago, he was walking around, albeit he was limping when he went up the stairs, but still very able to move around. We even took him for walks. I'm sort of kicking myself for that now.
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terror
Aug. 18th, 2009 @ 08:45 am (no subject)
Current Mood: awake
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Been having wedding dreams. The other night I dreamt that I started planning only two months in advance and I had to be a bridesmaid as well.

It is Bryce's birthday today. I bought him a mandolin and a very nice belt. He's at work now. :( I wish he could find something he could find satisfying fiscally in his life. Such it is, though, where home life is wonderful but work life could use a lot of improvement.

It's very refreshing, though, to find somebody that is so hands-on with this whole wedding thing too. If it were up to me and just me we'd get married in the backyard and not spend a dime on whole ordeal, but if it means that the family will meet and get together as a result of it then I'm all for it.


I don't know why I'm up this early.
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arles
Aug. 11th, 2009 @ 04:35 pm (no subject)
Setting the guest list is hard. I don't have many friends that I want coming to my wedding.
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foot
Aug. 10th, 2009 @ 06:27 pm dun dunnn.
Current Mood: creative
Current Music: Hayley Westenra- Pokakare Ana
I think I found my dress. All my attention has been taken away from natural requirements in life towards The Day. We also set a date: either on our anniversary or the day we first met. Our anniversary, technically is our first date, which was about a week after we first met. Hmmm.

I really want the walk down the aisle to be Hayley Westenra's Pokakare Ana. It's so beautiful and the history of it really hits home.

I think my mom is more excited about this wedding then I am. That's a whole hell of a lot.
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italy
Aug. 6th, 2009 @ 01:39 am (no subject)
Current Mood: loved
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I'm engaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaged!
I've been looking at bridal gowns since then.



That is all.
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flirtybird
Jul. 16th, 2009 @ 07:17 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: listless
So I saw Transformers last night and had a very hard time distinguishing the characters during the fight scenes, and there were a lot of them.


I'd say, better than I expected because that funny guy that is in all of the stupid Adam Sandler films was in it, but the main female character was kind of annoying and never got dirty (like smudgy) soo in that vein kind of predictable which is something I don't like.

I leave for 16 days starting tomorrow and have to leave everything behind (aka the boyfriend) to go work in a stupid humid hole. Booooo.
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foot
Jul. 9th, 2009 @ 11:53 am in some ways, I'm happy.
Current Mood: bitchy
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Some yuppie on my mom's street reported my car for not having a tag. In some ways it royally pisses me off that this neighborhood is just way too concerned about what everybody else is doing but in another way it makes me happy because it gives me a reason to bitch to my car dealer for not giving me a tag in over a month. Asshole should've given me one upon purchase of the vehicle, which is why I don't really..understand the problem with him. Honestly I would take it over there myself if I had the deed. Fucking ass.

It sucks as well because I tried calling him a half hour ago and my phone's about ready to go kaput and I can't find my charger..and he's not in until 12:30. Fuck.
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olive trees